Closure..

She'd rather switch off her mobile the whole day than to take my calls, and even I am smarter enough than to call her home now.

ICQ, SMS messages go unanswered, and probably unread.

It hurts sometimes to think about how perhaps a few years down the road, the very words and small little gestures that used to move me and make me smile, would be endearing themselves to another instead. My sunshine, she will be no longer. Undoubtedly, she will continue to come through the dark clouds of others in her life, casting away their grey skies with her ever ready smile and words of encouragement. I loved a woman who had compassion, and when it shone upon my own ugliness, it drove me mad.

When she finds love, let me be happy for her. Let me tell myself that however it ended, it was once real. The laughter, the tears, joys, heartaches, the pain, the euphoria and the madness that eventually swallowed it up. That it was part of my life. That when I look upon this chapter in my life, there will not be tears. That it happened so I could grow. That because it happened the way it did, two persons found out again what it means to be a child of God. That it happened only because He let it.

He alone holds tomorrow.

Who better than He to hold my hand ?

I love you, Jesus...

*hug*